midnight stroll

     Well, now that the summer program is over. Much has changed...if your still reading my blog, ha! so much has changed in my life. i returned home from UCLA and was at home for a week. i tried to get in my regular ruitine again. then after a week i went back and picked up my girlfriend. everything is great, though some times well you know how it is to be in a relationship.
     on monday i leave for our trip to cabo san lucas. so right now im trying to get my mind set on what i would need for the trip. i really haven't written in my journal. it should be 3 years that i havent written in it, and it was a present from a close friend. lets see....its 1:30 A.M. and i feel like my mind is really open! i cant describe it, some times i like to sit at night and smoke my pipe.

 

i just like to sit outside around this time. i would be smoking my pipe right now and be typing but my battery is about to die. what i like to do is just sit outside and think about my future and what i can do. there is so much i want to do, but of coarse there is one thing that stops me....money! so far ive been trying to get out of my shell and discover with the little money i have(i'm a student, so i dont have that much time for work). 

    ive been reading a lot of this website that has caught my eye for a few years now. it is http://www.artofmanliness.com/ if you havent seen it and your a guy trying to revive the lost art of manlyhood. then thats the website for you! sorry ladies if your reading my blog!

     i cant really explain what i'm going through but it is a refresh way of how i see the world. As if im back to my depressed point of my life where my mind felt open and clear.

     Well i'll leave it to this since i like to leave my post with a quote. try to sit down and face a direction of your place and visualize your mind open and information just flow in and maybe you might feel the world open up to what it hides. your the only person that can get you anywhere. when you feel down, just know that something around the corner that will cheer you up and keep moving you forward.

p.s. next time i'll try to make a list of things to talk about! plus time flies and next thing you know its been acouple of weeks since the last post. im trying my best to write everyday if not every other day.

let the good times roll?

i dont know what possessed me to start another post. i guess since i have no one to talk with. to get up to date, i am working at a summer program at UCLA that get kids (16-17 years old) from countries and bring them to LA to show them "american coulture" my girlfriend and i are working here and let me tell you; dont ever work with a significant other at a job. one of you is going to either get hurt or regret ever doing it in the first place. since ive been here ive been treated like less than a person. there are always fights because of how some one acts.
   we planned a vacation after the summer program and now i feel like i should just leave her. i cant take it anymore. but enough of my sob story, other than that the program is kinda cool. i get to take my group of 15 students to places that are either historical(which they dont like) or amusement parks. i am lucky that my student are actually good. they meet up at the time that they are told. some times i have to act up and set them straight. but for some spoiled-ass rich kids that never did anything. it is a vacation for them(and i believe its a vacation for their parents also). all they do is speak in their language and say bad things and try to sneak out since they have so much money.
   the good students are awesome. they are leaving tomorrow and its really sad since they dont want to leave. they are good kids and their parents raised them right. there is nothing much to say but i wish the bad kids were already on their way home
the pay is OK. but im just putting up with it till i get home and sell my motorcycle and buy another more powerfull bike. but the thing with my girlfriend is what do i do? i pure my heart out and its like nothing. i feel like she doesnt even care. i have been thinking about breaking up with her for a while now, and i feel like a fool when i try to go and make things better and buy crap for her. im just holding everything in and just not caring anymore. i'll decide what to do when i get home. im just bottling everything in until i explode. lets see where this goes.
   ive met some friends here and they are cool, all i can think about is my goal. which is my motorcycle! just one more week! just one more week! thats what i tell myself everyday. as for my girlfriend lets see what happens...im really pushed to my limit to just leave her on the spot. ive actually stopped talking to her and let her do her own thing. also! ive been making up stories just so i dont have to meet her, that way she has her own thing. i guess i'll keep that up.
   lets see where this takes us

     if you have any ideas or stories to share....comment! hope all is well with everyone