Friday, May 20, 2011

what to do now....

Its been a while since i have logged into this. many ideas have ran through my head, so many options and theories. well... i finally got my beach cruiser and it has saved me a lot of gas. i ride to school and to places that i usually would take my car. i have stopped drinking since ive been noticing a "beer belly". im trying to eat healthy and not a lot of junk food. but there are times i get really hungry at school and give in and get junk food. and i get mad at myself after i realize what i have done. i have not started working out even though i should start to get in shape and get ready for beach season haha. Even though i only like to go to the beach when its cloudy. i dont even go in the water only when my friend plans trips to dana point. i still dont have a job, i recently started applying at jobs but never for a mcjob(food jobs). but its a little hard to apply when i am about to go to Tennessee for about 2 weeks. i miss it there, its so quite and peacefull. Which brings me to my next topic,solitude. ive been mostly been by myself, which i do like but there are times i wish people would call me to hang out and get a cup o' coffee.
        Funny thing is that i have to write a paper about social networking. which i did enjoy writting since i wrote about how it have ruined lives and made more people depended on technology. Just imagine 3 pages about a kid ranting about how technology has ruined lives. its funny. i believe in the good o' days were men were men and women were women. not to be sexist but where the man was in charge and the lady didnt have to worry about anything. im getting alittle off topic but we dont need "smart phones" or social networking sites. we are depending too much on technology. instead of stopping for directions we have screens to tell us where to go. and to leave someone a message we go on their page and leave a "message" also known as a comment. now people are talking behind a screen instead of getting together and talking. When you invite someone to hang out and talk they mostly ask about where and with who. if its nothing that they can get ahead on. they wont even bother to go. mostly 75% of so-called friends that i have asked to hang out. said no or they got things planned and wont bother to contribute another day. But i have gotten used to being alone and peffer it now. and when i go to the bar with my friend i see people on their phones on facebook. its a sad world out there.
        On a plus, i did go see Danzig and Amon Amarth live. it was fun! i went into the mosh pit and had a blash moshing with people double my size. i did get tossed around but i knew how to handle it. even though i went to those shows i still mostly listen to jazz and blues. right now im getting into playing blues guitar. its hard but im taking it show. my friend told me something funny when i told him that i was getting into blues guitar. he said "the bad thing about blues guitar is that you get stuck into blues and cant leave" haha we started laughing out loud.
         Ive been working on my photography and been getting better at it. i made my little "studio" in my garage where i have a lot of lights hooked up and a bed sheet as a background. i am my own model so i have to put the timer and run back and forth with taking pictures. seeing what i did wrong and what i can change. On a better note my friend asked me to be his photographer for his wedding. im scared but excited to get the ball rolling on my photography. he asked me and came by to see my work, but it was a little imberrasing showing portraits of myself. i still need to buy a lot of camera stuff before the wedding. he offered to buy the things i need for the wedding. but i said i'll buy them.
        So far a way ive been making money besides my mom giving $40 a week for gas. ive been driving around going to thrift stores and buying antiques and selling them online. i have found a lot of cool stuff that i want to keep but i know i have to sell them to make money. i bought this reproduction ayers sasperella sign that was cool, and i had to post it online so far no one has called me to buy it. but i did make some money selling my dads camper. he told me that if i sale it i can keep half. a guy texted me that he wanted it and to save it for him. then another guy called me and asked to buy it for more. but i kept my word and told the guy no. he understoud. i am a man of my word. plus it helped that my dad talked to me and i was reading a lot on the website
         To end tonight i am at mcClains coffee house ALONE. its been a while that i have gone out alone late. i used to do it at starbucks but they banned smoking. so im enjoying my coffee and smoking my pipe :] its nice being alone, you get to do whatever you want and when you want with out asking anyone what they want to do. but there are times i come with my friend mark. a old friend of mine even though i do get mad at him sometimes haha. with other friends it always ends up doing what ever they want and i just tag along. one of my friends never wants to go to the coffee house late at night or in the day. he says its lame and people think abunch of bullcrap. so he rather go to the bar and spend $5 on a beer than $1.50 on a coffee and get to sit down and relax while we dont have to scream to each other like at bars. i have a lot of stuff to write but i'll save it for another night. and maybe later on ill post up some pics of my photography. haha and i still havent written in my journal. but i did get a blank book where i draw at school on my free times. i guess tonight im not ending it with a crazy way to end a sentence or something cool. life is deppressing.... yeah i'll end it with that

1 comment:

  1. You can eat anything you want just not a lot. & try to  exercise everyday. You can have your junk food just exercise a little more when you do. I would never give up my junk food. You only live once. If it tastes good eat it lol
    Or you can try to eat it only on the weekends.
    Since you have a bike you cam use it to exercise. It's fun and doesn't feel like you are working out.
    It's a good thing you stopped drinking. Alcohol is bad. Worse than food.
    Don't worry youll find a job soon. It's hard nowadays because of the damn economy. Try to ask everywhere you go if they are hiring. Is what I do. Sometimes they say no but you just gotta keep asking & filling applications. I was looking into some good ones but had to put everything on hold.
    Lol yes technology has ruined lives. But it also has helped. When you need to find some info or get in contact with people tech's also very entertaining. Don't you like video games? Hah
    Totally agree on the phones thing. Personally I don't like them. They have caused many car accidents. If you have something to say go to that persons house lol
    So you think men should be in charge? Sexist! Lol kidding
    I think both should be half & half if that makes sense. it's also a nice feeling when a guy protects you & takes charge though 
    If only we could go back in those simpler times . Sadly we live in a fast, cruel world .
    Lol on you being your own model. Conceited! Lol no I'm jkin
    That's cool & good for you to get your first gig as a photog.congrats
    What shops do you go to? I like antiques. I know of some but rarely find good stuff.
    Cheer up life should not be sad but happy.
    Just do things that make you feel good, have fun, enjoy life


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